I'm not sure you received my first submission as I wrote it and submitted, before logging in. If you did receive it, please use this one instead of thank one please. <br /> It's been three months since I lost my precious Bella, and the pain in my chest, is still as deep as the day she died. I cry for her everyday, and question if I made the right decision. The moment she stopped breathing, is etched in my mind forever. I feel like the veterinarians give you no choice. After a thousand dollars was spent, trying to find out what was wrong, I'm told her blood work did not look good, and that it would cost thousands and thousands of dollars to save her. They also said there were no guarantees it would work. If there are no guarantees it will work, then you have no business charging such outrageous prices, and why does it cost tens of thousands of dollars to save your pet? I think of all of those who made the decision to put their pet down, just because they couldn't afford the blood work! It could have been something so simple. The heartache of being forced to end your fury best friend's life. The friend who stuck by you, and loved you unconditionally. The friend who jumped for joy every time you walked through the door, and danced when you sang &quot;There Is Beauty In The World&quot;, during our many little kitchen dance parties, I had to say goodbye to. I betrayed her. I've been a vegetarian for over twenty years. I've always said that all living beings have just one life, who am I to end it? Yet here I am, ending Bella's. I don't even know if it's normal to grieve a pet so deeply. I'm not sure if I've ever grieved a friend or family member the same way. I ended a relationship, cocooned in my room, and fell into a bit of depression, second guessing my decision that day. Will time heal this wound? I have no idea. I do know however, how I feel about veterinarians, and because of them, I will never own another pet. The pain and loss is too deep. The picture I've attached shows the pure love between you and your fury, best friend. <br /> Kate Robinson<br /> St. john's   Submitted By: Kate Robinson